I never thought I would be saying those words! Never did it cross my mind that I would be engaged and experiencing everything I’m experiencing right now. The wedding preparations, finding a venue, trying on wedding dresses, wedding meetings, and everything that comes with it. I always saw other people get married and have their big day but I never pictured any of that for me. Especially, not after my last relationship. I was convinced that I wouldn’t find someone and that I would be single forever.
You know after hearing over and over again that I was too complicated, that I argued too much, that I got mad too easily, and that no one would be patient enough for me or handle my mood swings, I really thought I would be alone. And I’m too young to think like that but when people plant that over and over in your mind, you start to believe it. But anyway, I’ve realized, I was just with the wrong person because now, I don’t argue, I’m not quick to get angry, I don’t have mood swings, and I’m really not a complicated person.
I have never been this happy in my life. Probably since the day Lia was born. I feel like I’m living in a fairytale, no just kidding, but seriously though, everything I was hoping and wishing for in a relationship I now have.
I was never asking for too much, I was just asking the wrong person. I read that somewhere and it made sense.
It’s also amazing how everything has been working out. Honestly, it’s all of God’s doing because I had been praying for a while now about getting married. I thank God every day for our relationship but I had been asking and praying for if we were to get married and here we are and everything is working out smoothly.
As I look back sometimes, it’s crazy to me how blind we can be. Thinking I had it all but really was living a lie. I’m just so glad that now my reality isn’t just a dream, it’s happening and with the most amazing man ever. I could probably write a book about how amazing he is but I won’t. 🙂
Only 130 days until I am Mrs. De La Cruz. But who’s counting. 😉
